silence.. solitude..darkness..

three words that I have thought about inside the library this afternoon..

realization=

I fear these three..

I do not want to be in the middle of a silent crowd for I would not know who to approach, who to talk to, who to be with. I do utter alot of stories each day and my friends know that very well. Being alone in the library felt quite similar to that. For the first time I saw no familiar face despite the fact that I was still inside the campus. I wanted to shout because the absence of noise was overwhelming.

The silence caused me to imagine another thing: solitude.. It is as if everybody around me started to disappear. Call me paranoid but that was exactly how I felt. So I just closed my eyes to escape..

Darkness.. that was the next thing I thought of. I saw nothing. It was getting worse and I did not know what to do. I felt so afraid. I could not take it anymore.

(cellphone: toot toot)

Estar_popo: tapos na kme.. san tau mgkta?

Finally, my paranoia came to its end....

realization:: ayaw ko ng maging loner!!! waaahhhhh!!!