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d2..

life is full of surprises!!!..

un na..

statement of the year...

silence.. solitude..darkness..

three words that I have thought about inside the library this afternoon..

realization=

I fear these three..

I do not want to be in the middle of a silent crowd for I would not know who to approach, who to talk to, who to be with. I do utter alot of stories each day and my friends know that very well. Being alone in the library felt quite similar to that. For the first time I saw no familiar face despite the fact that I was still inside the campus. I wanted to shout because the absence of noise was overwhelming.

The silence caused me to imagine another thing: solitude.. It is as if everybody around me started to disappear. Call me paranoid but that was exactly how I felt. So I just closed my eyes to escape..

Darkness.. that was the next thing I thought of. I saw nothing. It was getting worse and I did not know what to do. I felt so afraid. I could not take it anymore.

(cellphone: toot toot)

Estar_popo: tapos na kme.. san tau mgkta?

Finally, my paranoia came to its end....

realization:: ayaw ko ng maging loner!!! waaahhhhh!!!

As I write these words, tears are running down my cheeks..
but these tears are the last tears that I would be shedding for HIM.

I know it has been years and I should have done this a long time ago but I am

FINALLY LETTING GO!

I have uttered these words before but they were merely said but I never really learned to do so.

It all started when yesterday afternoon, I found out that a friend of mine happens to be HIS friend way back in High School. We did not talk much about HIM but just this afternoon, he sort of told me something, which really hit me. It was as if I have spent the past few years being the dumbest person alive. He need not say much but I got what he meant. I must say he was not the first person to tell me that for my friends have been saying the same words but it was a lot different when it came from him. He is HIS friend for crying out loud!!!

Enough is enough! I know it would be hard but at least this time it is me telling myself that it is over. Yes, I admit that I have always believed that WE would end up together but not anymore. I am FREE!!! Free from the pain, free from being stupid, free from HIM!!!

I would not let myself be HIS prisoner anymore.
I have closed the door that led to HIM and I swear I would never ever open it again..
My bitterness is over. I know I would never forget HIM, but I know I would learn to live WITHOUT HIM. HE is not my world anymore and HE will never be again. I do not know if WE could be friends in the near future but that does not really matter anymore. What matters is that I have accepted the truth.. HE is not worth waiting for, HE is not worth it!!! period!!!!! I have had enough..

So as I wipe my tears, I say that

Finally..

Angge is free!!!

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pro ndi k lam kung san sisimulan..

highlights nlng..

single parin ako.. Darn!!!

may tinanggihan ako.. im sori..

at naghihintay parin ako ng krapatdapat...

tae.. im tired of being single...

i wanna be inlove...

kaso walang dumadating..

BITTER-MODE ON!!!!!!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

mahirap maging babae...

ndi ka pd mgtapat ng feelings ..

ndi ka pd gmwa ng first move...

pro di ba

mas mahirap maging tanga?...

anjan na..pinakawalan mo pa...

DAHIL LANG PINANINDIGAN MONG BABAE KA!!!!

Katangahan nga tlga un... o tlgang dapat gnon ang mangyari???...

ano b ang mas tama..

ang kaibiganin ang taong mahal mo

o

mahalin ang kaibigan mo???

para sakin.. mas gusto ko ang nauna... hindi kasi gnon ka-komplikado ung sitwasyon ko sa simula plng mlinaw na na may pagtingin ka sa taong un.. kya mo xa kinaibigan.. ang mgiging pundasyon ng pgkakaibigan nyo ay ang pagtingin n un.. pero kung mamahalin mo ang kaibigan mo mas mgulo.... oo nga matatag na ang pagkakaibigan nyo at mas kilala nyo na ang isa't isa pero pano kung mgkalabuan kau?! pati ang pagkakaibigan msasayang.. hindi kasi tlga pd n maging kaibigan p ang isang ex... yan ang katotohan... kahit ano pa ang mangyari.. kung tlgang kasi n mnhal m un.. mgkakailangan tlga kau pgngsalubong ang landas nyo...

kaya yan ang iiwan ko sa inyong lahat...

sinasabi ko sa inyo.. mahirap mgmahal ng kaibigan.. mas mgulo.. at higit sa lahat.... Mas masakit!!!!

hindi n ko bitter.. natuto na ko...

hindi masamang mgmahal.. pagisipan m lng mbuti kung sino ang mamahalin mo...